and at times you will get weary

and at times you will get weary and turn on each other
from fear, fatigue and blind forgetfulness.

and at times you will get weary and turn on each other

ok, i don't know about you, but sometimes i know i'm tired, worn out (burned out), or even just hungry when i'm cranky. i don't have the same patience, things get to me more easily, i just don't last. that happens. it happens here. it happens in colorado. it happens all over in the bible (how many times did the isrealites want to turn back??).

more recently, however, i had an experience of being weary. our rodinky (family fellowship group) here (technically in bačkovík) went on a trip this weekend to the tatry. while we were there, we went hiking (of course). the weather actually ended up being pretty perfect, not too hot, not too cold, sprinkling, not sunny enough for me to have to worry about sunscreen, only raining when it didn't matter too much. it was quite the hike, though. imro, maťo, and i went up pretty high. though i go up quite well, thanks to some pretty strong legs, my knees don't hold up quite as well on the way down.

my knees started to complain after a bit of stepping down from rocks, but the amazing thing was that, though my body was getting tired, mentally that was not the case. the three of us stuck together (which really translated to them stopping and waiting for me every once in awhile). it was an amazing hike and what was, perhaps, more amazing was the support i felt as we came down. it wasn't about getting there first, it was making sure we stuck together and nobody fell too far behind.

from fear, fatigue and blind forgetfulness.

sometimes i do let my fear get the best of me. i get a bit defensive and i close in on myself. i have been lucky here, because even when that happens, i have had enough support from friends and family back home as well as from people here that i have been supported. it has been such that when i am afraid or tired or forget my purpose, others are strong. my weakness is covered by their strength and vice versa.

this happens a lot with lisa, where we will talk and i will be down or she will be down and we can pick each other up. we can reassure each other and remind each other of why we're here and what we're doing. so yes, fear happens, as do fatigue and forgetfulness. but that's what the letters from home, the calls, and the messages are for. they remind me. they bring me back to where i'm meant to be, which is here. right where i am.

and at times you will get weary and turn on each other
from fear, fatigue and blind forgetfulness.